I climb in bed around 9:30pm. I had already gotten a text from my ex-husband saying they just made it to his house safely. All I can think is thank you Jesus!! They are safe and together. Then I think, please Lord put a circle of protection around them and break those chains of addiction binding my son and his father.
My emotions were so mixed. Should I cry? Should I giggle? Should I feel better? I am overwhelmed by the range of emotions I am having. My son, a precious child of God, has left the island and won’t be back anytime soon. I didn’t even get a hug before he left.
Silent tears start down my cheeks. I tell no one. These are the nights I feel alone. I feel weak. I feel vulnerable. I cannot help my son. I cannot take away his addictions or make him better.
I must give it up to God. It’s in his hands now and I must trust he has a plan. Please Lord protect my heart and mind. I finally drift off to sleep.
Ephesians 6:11 New International Version (NIV)
Put on the full armor of God, so that you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes