My husband and one of our daughters and I went to this movie tonight. Wow, Wow, and Wow. I haven’t shed that many tears in a long time at the movies. This movie tugged at my heart strings and spoke to my core. It brought me back to my own life experiences. Having a family member being physically and emotionally abusive for the majority of my childhood. I was so relieved when that person was no longer in the picture. However, I was ambivalent about it for a very long time.
When the person who is abusing you is someone that you want to love and care for you it makes it all the bit harder to let go. Forgiveness is not easy. Even when you do forgive someone it is hard when they don’t acknowledge your pain. This is why accepting Jesus was so very important for me.
I learned that despite the things I had experienced at the hands of this person, that I am worthy, loved and cared for no matter what. That I am loved by Our Heavenly Father and I am offerred grace and acceptance. I don’t have to measure up to a certain standard because Jesus already died for my sins. I also learned that I am OK to forgive someone without acknowledgement on their part – it doesn’t mean that I wasn’t hurt by them or the actions never happened. This was hard for me to work through.
This also makes me think of my own child who is suffering from substance use disorder. Forgiving him and loving him where he is at because he deserves it no matter what he has done. I know he has a desire to recover and he can. I know he loves me and his family and his sisters and brother. I know he wants to be loved back and to be accepted and to be OK.
I can only imagine ………
You can add the remainder of that sentance that completes what is in your heart. Each of us has a dream and desires. Never give up and never underestimate your potential. No matter what anyone else says.