Well I am back from Japan. Had an absolutely amazing time! I would recommend to anyone that they go and see Japan!! It was fantastic! I found it very peaceful after I started to feel more comfortable. The scenery is such bright and so green! Not like anything I have seen. And the streets are so clean! Not a garbage can in sight, yet no trash on the ground. People do not walk around eating anywhere in Japan. It is not heard of.
So, while I was gone all hell broke loose. Our son relapsed and was full on using all the time. Things were going very bad. My husband and him had words and my husband reconciled and went to him and they were fine. Both of them were at fault.
Why are there no directions on how parents are to deal with this stuff? UGH, makes it so very difficult. You love your kid so much and yet you have to sit back and watch it all take place and not be able to do anything. My heart feels like it is stomped on all the time!
Anyhow, I am back now and look my son was finally able to get into the medication assisted therapy program and it looks like he will have a bed for inpatient treatment and he has a detox he can go to. So hopefully the crazy cycle is about to take a rest at least for a while. I am praying he can get the services he needs to stop altogether and not turn back. However, I must be prepared for the worst and hope for the best. I have faith!!